Define Holy

Last Maundy Thursday, my family and I weren't able to do our usual Visita Iglesia because we still had to prepare our stuff for our trip to Zambales the next day. We just went to the Marcelo church at night to do the way of the cross. Having realized that we never ate any meat during the day, we decided to treat ourselves to any open coffee shop nearby. But then my mom has never been really a fan of Starbucks or the like because she finds the coffee prices there absurd. So at 9pm, we headed to Brooklyn Pizza in BF Homes instead, and at around P500, we already had one humungous pizza in front of us! Their White Pizza is the best, I swear. We did our best trying to avoid meat for the first 21 hours, but it did not surprise us that we still had to resort eating a packload of wheat with bacon, pepperoni, and grease on top of it to end the day.



Cooking gives me the high, and I am glad summer months give me the chance to be all squiffy at it. That's spaghetti with tuna, which my siblings did not know of until their plates are all empty.

I will post about our Zambales trip in awhile when Tita Ni sends me the pictures. :)

Rest Stop

My mom reiterates to me the importance of being able to stop the vicious cycle of work. How? Leave the cycle behind, then come back, and you gain your momentum. Puerto Galera is definitely a great breather from all the stress the recent school year has brought me. This is a good start for a less stressful yet fulfilling summer ahead. More pics here.

Note to Self

I used to define myself with the relationships I am in--whether it may be a relationship with my family, my boyfriend, or my friends. I used to love doing things so my parents will approve of me, or so my special someone will still continue to love me, or so that my friends would admire me. My worth was measured on how I measure up to other people's expectations. I used to wake up everyday not knowing what my standards are. I had never really grasped the meaning of enough, for I keep on persisting on what other people want from me. I can only stop only when my limits crash, for there is nothing anymore to hold and protect me.

I have lost love, for myself, to the child lingering within, and to the woman I have become. I have lost love to the fact that I love the day sky than the night, that I love my rice fried, that I never really love fish but vegetables are never a problem, that I love having profound conversations, but I also love to laugh over the most mundane, that I love to read and I love to write, whether my punctuations and grammar are in place or not, that I love dancing alone in my room, that I love exploring new places, that I love my man to be prudent and smart, and that I love dreaming big.

I posted this in a future date with the hopes that I reach this day with a regained love of self, that even if other people's opinions are important, what I would really deem important are the values which my heart clings to. I would live to remind myself that to efficiently deal with others, I have to master dealing with myself first.

Thoughts at Stray from my Sabaw Mind

Because Junior Year killed my brain cells, I could not form a coherent entry as of now. (Anyway, blog ko naman 'to di'ba! Haha!)

So, what's up in my lifeless life?

* I have a new mp3 player! :D As usual, it's still Creative! To see it, click here.

* Interviews for practicum are ongoing. Can't believe I am one of the 5 students from Ateneo who were chosen (out of around 100 applicants from different schools) for Campaigns & Grey's internship program. Interview was held awhile ago. 5 of us (me, 2 from UPM, 2 from St. Scho) were asked to conceptualize an ad for a Life Insurance Company. The ad had to catch Donald Trump's attention! My gawd. Akala ko noong una si Donald Trump yung may-ari ng Mcdonald's! Siya pala yung sa Apprentice! Haha! That's what happens if you don't watch reality tv shows! Good thing my teammates know a lot about him. I'm not really confident with what we made, though. I thought it was kinda "ordinary". Aside from some clarifications, the panelists said that they liked it. I don't know why I have the feeling that they're just saying that to appease us. They actually complimented some stuff I mentioned on IMC (integrated marketing communication). I just hope they remember that I was the one who talked about that. We will find out next week who among the 24 (24 applicants from different schools passed the 1st screening) will finally push through with the program. Anlabo lang. Sabi nila around 20 din daw yung tatanggapin nila. Eh around 20 na nga kami, eh. My other teammate told me that the interview awhile ago was probably just to see kung malilinis mga kuko namin, kung maayos naman ba kami manamit, etc! Haha puwede :)

However, the whole experience didn't really made me "high" the way I thought it would be. I don't like selling my ideas and proposing to everyone that mine's the best. As much as I like to prove my worth, I hate competing with others. I don't really believe that we should eat each other up to survive. Kaniya-kaniyang tadhana 'to, mhen. Magtulungan tayo. (Stop na. I don't want to go philosophical here.)

* ANYWAY! My family and I are going to Galera in a couple of hours! WHOOPPPEEEE! :D My camera is really excited to take pictures of the beach! :D

* I am currently enrolled in Slimmer's Makati. Been planning to lose weight for a change. I need to have more ME-time this summer.

* But I'm also tempted to work for 2 companies this summer (Ang guwapo kasi ng isa kong boss! Haha! Kidding!). Grabe, I couldn't believe I have become a freakin' workaholic. But I still know how to have fun, of course! :D This summer, I'm planning to...

1. Go to Galera (later na!)
2. Go to Marinduque (Mich's hometown!:D)
3. Customize my Blogger layout
4. Customize my Multiply layout
5. Learn how to take better pictures
6. Take more pictures
7. Watch the sunset at Manila Bay
8. Go to MOA (been there 1x or 2x pa lang)
9. Go to the bar with friends!
10. Eat at some delicious restaurant I haven't tried out yet
11. Lose some weight haha
12. Go to the gym regularly
13. Build my mp3 player's library!
14. Watch One Tree Hill
15. Blog more often
16. Go to Hongkong (this June! :D)
17. Go to beach with friends :)
18. Hopefully, get drunk! Hahaha! Never pa kasi eh! Maexperience ko man lang!
19. Plan how my bed space would look like (because I'm going to take a dorm coming senior year!)
20. Cook :)
21. Paint, paint, paint! :)
22. AT MARAMI PANG IBA.
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23. And probably date someone. Haha. Probably pa lang. ;)


There's gotta have more change in my life aside from losing weight and taking the dorm next schoolyear. UP Diliman, Katips, Gateway, watch out! May bago kayong tambay! :)

JUNIOR YEAR IS OVER. "OMG!" (as how Lance would say it) SENIOR NA 'KO.

Waiting in Vain

By tonight, I should have read 16 hand-outs for my History Long Test on Thursday.
I have only finished 3.

By tomorrow, I should have an outline for our History group reporting/paper which is due next week.
I still have none.

History, why are you so hard on me?

And oh, I still have my Theo paper, test, and orals, Ad paper, Philo paper and orals, and IMC report.

Gawd.

But after all these,
I'm going to Galera,
Boracay,
Quezon,
and Marinduque.
By then, I'm sure junior year would be all worth it.